It does not seem to matter. The roller coaster never seems to stop. I’m high and I’m low all within hours, sometimes minutes. Every feeling seems to be dependant on my last interaction. If it was good, I’m good, it it was bad, I’m depressed and scared of the next outcome. Constantly worrying about how people value me at. Constantly worried about whether I’m loved or respected, all while not really giving a shit what people think. Maybe that’s something I just say to make me Feel better about myself. Be strong, who cares what they think out loud, but in my head a tiny little man speaks criticism and doubts. I am broken.
I can totally relate to this story. I am constantly second guessing myself. Every decision is a cataclysm of despair. I feel overwhelmed constantly, paralyzed from fear. What the hell can I do to to overcome this.
I think we can all relate to these feelings from time to time. I use my playlist to trick myself out of it. I also use Headway everyday on the way to work to listen to book summaries that help change my mindset and clear my mind as to the real cause of my anxiety. Anxiety robs us of our future, both mentally and physically. Learning to cope with it using some of the resources we have on the site might help you both create habits to combat it. ❤️