Okay, so I’m 17 and my life seriously sucks. My mom is this total nightmare who basically makes me feel like I’m the worst person ever. Like, every single day she finds something to criticize – my clothes, my hair, how I breathe, whatever.
My dad? He’s basically a ghost. He just sits there and does nothing while my mom tears me down. It’s like he’s afraid to say anything, so he just doesn’t. At all.
My older siblings got out, but I’m still stuck here. They understand, but they’re not really helping me. They’ve got their own lives now, and I’m just here alone getting yelled at on the daily.
School is a joke. I’m that quiet girl nobody really notices. Inside, I’m screaming, but on the outside, I’m just invisible. My notebook is my only real friend. I write everything in there – all my fears, all my crazy thoughts about maybe someday escaping.
But escaping? That’s terrifying. Where would I even go? My mom has this weird control over me that makes me feel like I can’t survive on my own. What if she’s right? What if I’m actually as useless as she says?
Sometimes I dream about a different life. A life where someone actually listens to me, where I’m not constantly being told how much I suck. But right now, that feels about as real as winning the lottery.
I know I need to do something. I know this can’t be my whole life. But I’m scared. So freaking scared.
I am sorry you are going through this. I want you to know that someone has listened. That you do have what it takes, even if that means asking for help. None of us knows how to do it all. We all need help at various moments in our lives. You are creative and resourceful. I bet your notebook has so many things you can do to make it just a little bit better. One step at a time. Do one little thing that is something wonderful just for you. It won’t change everything. But it will make this moment a little better and it helps. I am glad you reached out. I am glad you are here. You matter. <3
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